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i watch the pale light that shines down
from the full moon dance across my blankets
i lay still.
unsure of how to move.
every heavy breath i take in, an anvil on my chest.

something deep inside tells me that everything is going to get better from this point on,
but on the surface,
nothing is right.
and it feels like nothing will ever be right again.

i lay here, alone, in a bed
cold stone against my restless skin.
i haven't been this lost in a place so familiar.
maybe i should have felt like this months ago..
but it's only hits me now.
all of the newly found regrets come crawling up my throat from the pits of my stomach
And wisper taunting words of my faults at my wimpering heart.

the force of this moment pushes tears from just the corner of my eyes,
down my bare cheeks.
i taste the dull salt from my trickiling tears.
i decide to roll over.

i find comfort when i can no longer feel my cold tears on my shaking skin.
with my face buried in this pillow,
i take one last deep breath,
and close my eyes.
dreaming of better days..
when seeing a smile on my face was no different then seeing the sun.
i fear that i'll never get that feeling back.

memories play on the inside of my clenched eyelids like a cinema.
the warm embraces that feel like i enjoyed only yesterday,
make my eyes tear again.

all i can think about is the comfort of sleep.
how, if i was to be able to drift into a world that reality can't reach,
maybe happiness would flood my subconscious once more.
because only in my dreams,

can i be with you.

my hazy thoughts become more and more like television static.
numbing.
i never want to wake up.
because in reality,
waking up is more like falling into a nightmare.
sighhh.
i vow never to upload writing again.
beccause, i stink at it.
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Miss-Doll-Murder's avatar
O.M.G. that is not stinking at something, that is being a genius! Amazing work (: